I just found out that I have two nominations for this year’s international erotic film festival (www.ficeb.com) in Spain. I am so excited because I have been nominated as ‘best director’ and “Feeling it!”, my new release is nominated as ‘best film’. Last year I won “best ‘soft’ film” for “Female Fantasies”. This year I have been invited into the ‘inner sanctum’ of hard-core awards. The two most prestigious nominations are mine and I can’t stop smiling.
I am the only female director nominated next to the well established male directors, the heavy weights of the porn industry: Marc Dorcel, Rocco Siffredi, Paul Thomas and John Leslie. It feels good to be recognized by the industry. Last year at the Venus award in Germany they introduced a new category “female hard-core”. I know they had good intentions to create a unique category for female-made porn but I believe that true equality means that a man or woman can win ‘best director’ and ‘best film’. I think it would be great to have an award for alternative porn that is independently produced – be it by a male or female director. To produce independently without the financial and promotional backing of one of the big companies is a real achievement and that should be recognized. It’s the independent producers that create what’s called “alt porn” – alternative porn that is fresh and exciting. I would also welcome an award for creativity as most porn is so dull and repetitive it would do the industry good to acknowledge and reward creativity. New talent that finds creative solutions to the sex by numbers formula most porn features can help to rejuvenate the industry and get us to think out of the box and ultimately liberate us sexually.
I don’t know what my chances are of winning one of these awards. After all I am nominated alongside famous and talented directors and big budget films that have the backing of the industry’s giants – companies like Vivid or Private. They can afford locations and equipment that I can only dream about. But then again I got my creative and kinky mind which works in unique ways, so maybe there is a slight chance that I will walk away with an award this year. But for now I am on a real high to be nominated and can’t wait to be over in Madrid next Wednesday for the big red carpet event. It will be a celebration and I will be part of it and that is all that matters.
In the summer the garden is my favourite room in the flat. I work and play in it – spending hours on the laptop in the sun. I am always on the lookout for unique trinkets to make this ‘room’ more magical. My most prized possession is the hot tub where many evenings are spent relaxing after a hard days work. I grow my own strawberries, lettuce and lots of sweet peas. Recently many round mirrors have been added and a sparkling glitter ball. The most recent addition however is a gorgeous pert butt. It’s my boyfriend’s bum that has been cast in iron and now seductively protrudes from the wall.
I love his bum and want to see it as much as possible. If my boyfriend walks up the stairs in front of me, I am ready to play within seconds. The slightest wiggle of his perfect peach and I get weak in the knees and moist between my legs.
Male bums are hot and highly underrated. They are the only real curves on an angular male body and I am drawn to them magnetically. I love that they are not soft and squishy but muscular and firm. They are spankable and fuckable and I cant get enough of them. It is so hot that between the cheeks lies the gateway to a guys most erogenous zone: the prostate (what a horrible, medical name) that I love to massage until it swells, gets hot and triggers the most spectacular orgasm. Pirelli might do a boob calendar I want a male bum calendar. Bums do it for me and I want to see more of them. When I look at the iconic bum on my garden wall it makes me happy as I think of the pleasures that lie ahead and soon in my hungry hands.
I have just returned from a trip to Amsterdam where I met and interviewed the fabulous Candida Royalle for my upcoming documentary on female pornographers. Candida who has been producing and directing sensual porn for women in the States for two decades now is not only a pioneer but veteran when it comes to visualising erotic female fantasies. Over the past few months we have become pen or rather keyboard friends, writing to each other regularly to network and inspire each other across the Atlantic. As Candida was in Amsterdam to work with the designer of Natural Contours, a female friendly sex toy line she helped to create, I thought: this is it let’s meet and share that long overdue glass of champagne. We did meet and got on like a house on fire. It was wonderful to talk to Candida about female friendly toys, what women want in porn, designer vaginas and the future of the adult industry. In her two decades of creating alternative porn Candida has gained so much insight and wisdom that I was blessed to capture on film. Look out for the documentary that I aim to complete by the end of this year. It will feature many of the female key players when it comes to porn: Candida Royalle, Annie Sprinkle, Anna Span, Maria Beatty and many more.
I was delighted that through my networking with the female run alternative sex shop Mail and Female they found out about Candida’s visit and decided to invite her for an evening on porn for women. And what an amazing event it was. It was full house with 75 women attending, swigging champagne with raspberries and exchanging ideas on what makes sex films porn for women. Ella, the porn expert from Mail and Female put together a show reel of lots of different porn clips from female directors to illustrate how many different visions of female porn there are. The different approaches form the directors were mirrored in the response of the audience: some women liked it rough and ready with a good pinch of humour and some liked their porn to be arty, sensual and subtle. I loved Candidas’s attitude: “Don’t ever make a woman feel bad if she does not like porn, not even female made porn. Tastes vary and what is too hard woman is too soft for another. It is OK to not all agree on what turns us on!”
Mail and Female were one of the first mail order companies to cater for women who wanted to buy sex toys and porn online and are celebrating their 20th birthday this year. To celebrate their success they are putting on more events with women from all over the world. On the 19th of June Annie Sprinkle will teach breathing techniques that support orgasm and on the 9th of August I am invited to give a presentation on how to make your own creative porn.
There are a lot of exciting events happening right now in Amsterdam; one of them being “Pinched”, an alternative Erotica festival peaking on the 21st of June. There will be many exciting discussions and performances and I will be doing an open casting.
After my visit in Amsterdam I feel truly inspired and enriched. To meet Candida, the Mail and Female posse and Marije Janssen, the organiser of “Pinched”, made me realise what I have been sensing for quite some time now: porn for women is unstoppable. There are so many women working on female focused erotica right now that neither the adult industry nor the mainstream press can call us a niche phenomenon. We work on these films around the world and around the clock and what makes us a force to be reckoned with is the fact that we are all connected right now. We talk to each other, we listen, we learn and we co-operate. Now that we have found each other the sky is the limit! Sisterhood is powerful. Work co-operations emerge and friendships grow. As a parting gift Candida gave me a signed copy of her fabulous book “How to tell a naked man what to do!” (you never stop learning) and I gave her home made English strawberry jam. I have a feeling we will be friends for life.