It has been an amazing year for women’s porn. I am happy I could contribute in various ways to what feels like the breakthrough of the genre in Europe. I am particularly proud of publishing the first ever feminist porn compilation “Her Porn, volume 1” which has been a huge success. Throughout curating this exciting compilation many fantastic friendships with fellow filmmakers were born.
I am grateful to count the accomplished queen of women’s porn Candida Royalle, the creative grand mistress of “porn noir” Maria Beatty and the inspiring Marianna Beck as my friends.
A personal milestone has been to work my way through 150 hours of behind the scenes footage shot during the last three years, to create my very personal documentary “The Joy of Porn” which premiered at the pornfilmfest in Berlin. It felt good to look back and realise how far you can go when you believe in your dreams and do everything you can to make them come true. But this is not just about me, my friends and performers in my films and our dreams and fantasies as 2009 was the year I started to actively mentor new female filmmakers with the “Petra Joy Award”. I would like to thank all the amazing women that did submit their erotic films to my first ever award for new filmmakers and congratulate the talented winners! It has been a pleasure getting to know you and with the support of my sponsor pjur encourage you to make more erotica from a female perspective.
It also feels good to become more actively involved in the distribution of alternative porn and help fellow female filmmakers to get their films sold and seen in Europe. I am distributing Marianna Becks’ film “Free Love” (U.S. Title was “Urban Friction) about the adventure to enjoy an open relationship. As of now “Dirty Diaries”, a feminist porn compilation from Sweden is also distributed by me in all German speaking countries and I feel honoured that the producers trust me with getting this exciting project out there.
The sisterhood is getting bigger and stronger – we are a force to be reckoned with. Not only do we inspire and support each other as filmmakers but are using our contacts as business women to actually build up an alternative distribution network that spans the world. Rather than letting men in suits decide if our films make it to the shops we sell them to the shops ourselves. I would like to use this opportunity to thank Candida Royalle for distributing my film “Feeling it!” for me in America.
Not only do women network and distribute each other’s work, we also started to celebrate our creative achievements. This year the first feminist porn award of Europe, PORYES happened in Europe and it was a special event for me as I was honoured alongside other filmmakers that I count to be my friends: Candida Royalle, Maria Beatty, Annie Sprinkle and Shine Louise Houston.
On a personal note, my dwarf rabbits had really cute and fluffy babies this year, so it was an all round fertile year!
I look forward with joy and excitement to 2010: With the input of more up- and coming female erotic filmmakers, I will publish “Her Porn, volume2”. I look forward to my presentations and workshops that I will give in Valencia and Vienna (so far). With the help of a sponsor I hope to run another erotic short film competition and award more talented first time female filmmakers. The topic and prizes should be announced soon – keep an eye on: www.joyawards.com
If all goes well I will also shoot at least one new film – finances permitting. What it is about is a surprise. After having been featured on three prime time TV programmes in Germany, many women and men applied to star in my films – so it will be exciting to cast some new faces for a film. I am buzzing with ideas.
I also hope to have a two week holiday for the first time in three years some time in 2010. And as I now have a personal assistant, the lovely Saskia I hope this will happen. It is lovely to see the team grow and work with people who share my vision. I would like to say thank you to my fab graphic designer Ray, my editor Paul and my webmaster Tony. Well done, guys – we like men that support female sexual liberation and porn by and for women!
Thank you all for supporting me by reading my blog, writing to me, buying my films or co-operating with me creatively! It is for you that I do what I do and it makes it all worthwhile to feel appreciated.
I hope the peaceful Christmas magic will reach you very soon and wish you an exciting and erotic, happy and healthy and successful 2010. Enjoy!
I feel privileged and blessed to be able to explore and express my sexuality freely.
Erotic exploration and sexual pleasures are a birthright of every human but are still an unobtainable luxury to many women who do not live in the Western world. How many women around the world can’t even begin to think about freely expressing and exploring their sexual desires because their basic human rights aren’t secure? This Christmas, I want to make a difference by helping a cause that is very close to my heart. I’m donating part of the proceeds of my DVD sales to support “The Foundation for Women’s Health, Research and Development” (FORWARD), who are working to end female genital mutilation (FGM) in Africa and beyond.
FGM is defined by the “World Health Organization” as the range of procedures that involve “the partial or complete removal of the external female genitalia (labia and clitoris) or other injury to the female genital organs.” About 138 million African women are the victims of FGM. Because the procedure is often carried about a by someone with no medical training and no access to antiseptic treatments or anesthetics, the consequences of the traumatic and painful procedure can be life-threatening: Infection, urine retention, injury to adjacent tissues, immediate fatal hemorrhaging, menstrual difficulties, and complications in pregnancy and childbirth are only some of the common implications of FGM.
Here’s a personal account of FGM from Waris Dirie, a UNFPA Goodwill Ambassador and FGM spokesperson from FORWARD’s site: “Mama tied a blindfold over my eyes. The next thing I felt my flesh was being cut away. I heard the blade sawing back and forth through my skin. The pain between my legs was so intense I wished I would die.”
Though it is not clear where this practice started (perhaps Ancient Egypt), it is now practiced widely by minority ethnic groups around the world. FGMs are often performed to initiate a female into adulthood, as a means of purification, and to signify her inclusion in a community. FORWARD estimates that about 6,500 girls in the UK are at risk for FGM every year.
I feel saddened that so many women around the world have been genitally mutilated and suffer horrific medical and psychological consequences.
Apart from the physical and emotional scars that the victims suffer, these women lose what I feel is a basic human right: the right to sexual pleasure and satisfaction. What is it like to be robbed of the ability to have physical pleasure during sex? What are the implications for a woman’s sexuality, when their genitalia have been a site of torture? The message this act sends to women would seem to be one of total male dominance, and seems to create sex not as an expression of pleasure and fertility, but as one of total female submission. A forced submission into a beauty ideal that pleases men and increases their sexual pleasure.
It is ironic that many Western women these days have their inner and outer labia cut down in size to submit to a male beauty ideal that has been promoted by glamour photography and porn: tiny teenage pussies that look “clean” and “innocent” rather than a mature female sexual organ that signifies power.
This is why I love Grit Scholz’s book: “Das Tor ins Leben” – the gate to life (www.das-tor-ins-leben.de) in which she celebrates all kind of vaginas in their full bloom and uncut.
I gladly give some of my hard-earned money to women who have been vaginally mutilated and to hopefully prevent some more FGM’s from happening. Education is the key. If the consequences are known and understood I think it will be easier for the cultures still practicing FGM to move on and create new rituals for becoming a female adult. Rituals that celebrate the gate to life and the pleasure it can bring to women and men alike.
You can find out more about the FGM or donate money to FORWARD here: www.forwarduk.org.uk
Since Berlin, I’ve been flooded with press inquiries and have been running through the footage I shot there, including the Petra Joy Awards. I have been viewing and editing non-stop. So I have had no time to share my adventures in this blog until now but you can now view videos of my time in Berlin. The videos will take you behind the scenes and show you the wild and wonderful journey that took place that week. The videos are available on my YouTube channel right now.
Following the success of Her Porn Volume 1, I’m busy curating the second volume. Seeking out fellow feminist porn filmmakers is always a treat, and this installment promises to deliver another set of dynamic videos and amazing directors. Some of the filmmakers include Anna Brownfield from Australia with her fab indie film “The Band”, all of the winners of the Petra Joy Awards, Samantha Linton from Canada with “Man Of My Dreams” and many, many more. Most of the featured filmmakers are previously unpublished in Europe. The target release date is March 2010. If you haven’t seen Her Porn Volume 1, you can find it here.
I’m proud to announce that the Swedes are coming! I’m branching further out into distribution with “Dirty Diaries” (2009), a new Swedish feminist porn compilation made by women for women. I think Dirty Diaries will be a porno classic. Of course, it’s exciting to become a representative for other female directors. Distribution is a key issue – without it you can’t sell your films, make production costs back and finance more films. It took me almost two years until my first film “Sexual Sushi” got into the shops. Five years down the line I now have good contacts to buyers especially in the German-speaking countries. I am proud to be able to provide a service to up-and-coming female filmmakers that I wish were available to me when I was starting out. Like I trust Candida Royalle with the distribution of my film “Feeling it” in the States, Mia Engberg and the Swedish Film Institute are trusting me to exclusively distribute this work in German-speaking countries.
Mia found 12 female filmmakers to shoot what they felt was a feminist porno on their mobile phone cameras, and the result is exciting and inspirational. For couples and women, this is a treasure chest of erotic creativity, individuality, and variety. This release is a great way to get to know fresh, talented females who are sharing their erotic fantasies – without shame. The film will be available soon from my online shop. If you are interested in further information or placing an order, don’t hesitate to contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Find out more about the “Dirty Diaries” at www.dirtydiaries.se.
I know it’s not yet December, but today I’ve taken the time to put my Christmas decorations up. As I have been flat out the last few months working 12 hour days and most Saturdays, I needed something to remind me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have only had 2 weeks of holidays in the last 24 months. The Christmas tree is my daily reminder that I just have to push through another few weeks before I can take a breathe and enjoy the holiday: a girls’ night-in with champagne in front of the open fireplace and a candle-lit hot tub session with my boyfriend – I long for all of that and more.
The mad rush towards Christmas is on. I hope you, like me, have a special reminder that there’s a holiday filled with warmth, love and joy just a few weeks away.
I just returned from two jam-packed weeks in Berlin where I attended the Venus trade show and the fourth pornfilmfest, won the poryes award, hosted the Petra Joy Award and was followed around non-stop by endless TV crews.
It has all been really exciting but as I never got to sleep more than 5 hours a night it has been exhausting. All work and hardly any play and it was weird having to turn down so may kind offers for cups of coffee or glasses of wine because I simply did not have any free time to socialise… Let me fill you in on new and exciting events and encounters that have inspired me:
For the first time ever they had at the Venus (biggest adult show in Europe) a “Ladies only” area where men stripped. It was just a small cordoned off area and the 15 minutes show only happened twice a day but it was a start. The showroom was packed with eager women who enjoyed the hunky guys’ acrobatic and full strip. Unfortunately women tend to still be shy about their joy of watching guy candy and it was really difficult to find women who would talk to me on camera about the pleasure of watching a guy strip. It is as if many of us are still ashamed of our voyeurism and I hope that this will pass and one day we can just talk about what turns us on without fear or shame. It is good to see that the industry finally realises that women are voyeurs too and I hope more of this kind of events will finally happen all over the world. These shows were the only thing that excited me about the Venus. I did not find any new toys and was quite shocked that apart from the plastic surgeons advertising their breast enhancements, this year one surgeon was advertising labia reduction. He handed out roses to passing women as if to say: “Here, have a rose and buy a designer vagina – never mind the pain”. I am fully aware of the impact cloned teenager vaginas as seen in porn have on women who wrongly assume that they pussy is not beautiful enough. This saddens me. I am all for variety and personally find fleshy labias more womanly and sexier than tiny teeny pussies.
It was a nice contrast to the Venus show that mainly caters to men to meet other female erotic entrepreneurs at the Plastixx dildo factory one evening after the show. This is an annual networking event hosted by Stephanie Doerr, a dildo designer and every year more and more women who make or sell erotic toys, films, magazines, books come to network with other women and exchange ideas. The following night it was a pleasure to meet more like-minded women at the first European Poryes Event where my friends Candida Royalle, Maria Beatty, Annie Sprinkle and Shine Louise Houston as well as me got honoured for our films with a trophy in the shape of a giant sparkling oyster. It is wonderful to see that we all get together to celebrate each other, our work and above all female sexual liberation and pleasures. It was lovely to catch up with Candida and Maria who I had not seen for a while and Candida and I spent the next evening having a girls’ night in with a bottle of bubbly and a wonderful exchange of ideas. I am so happy to be able to count Candida as such a close friend – her support gives me strength and picks me up when I most need it. It is also very exciting that shortly Candida will publish my film “Feeling it!” in America under her Femme Productions label and I thank her for that.
The following week we both went to the pornfilmfest – my fourth and Candida’s first. The opening film “The Band” from Anna Brownfield, a talented Australian filmmaker was a blast – it was a rock and roll comedy with lots of creative explicit sex scenes thrown in (including a cross-dressing male rock star and a woman fucking a guy with a strap-on). I am pleased to say that Anna and me really clicked and I will be showing one of her scenes on my forthcoming release “Her Porn, vol. 2”. It really does happen all around the world right now: women getting behind the camera and showing the world what turns them on! This year 40% of all films at the pornfilmfest were shot by women which is fantastic. Unfortunately I was not able to see as many films, do any workshops or go to all the fab parties as I did last year because I had tons of TV crews in tow that were documenting my work and the preparations to the Petra Joy Awards ect. I know it sounds glamorous but it isn’t – it is hard work to things over and over again for the cameras and always being asked the same questions over and over again (the first one always being “What makes your films different from mainstream porn?”). It does not give me a kick to be on TV. I am a private person and really cherish the time away from the limelight walking on my local beach or pottering in my garden. But I mustn’t grumble – as it is illegal to advertise for porn this kind of publicity is essential to let women know about my films and spread the message that films that show female fantasies do finally exist. But in the next few months I will take a break from all the media attention – I just crave some experiences without the cameras recording and documenting every moment of it. No TV shoots until the new year (I already turned one production company down today).
There were three trends at this year’s pornfilmfest: 1. More and more filmmakers reject the crisp, clear high definition look in favour for grainy and rough around the edges footage shot by a mobile phone or webcam. 2. Music and sound-scapes have become really important. Many films use tailor-made music and complicated sound effects that support the film in an exciting way (we have come a long way from badly dubbed porn and cheesy wallpaper music). There were loads of films featuring bands and rock music – ‘rock porn’ seems to be the latest alternative porn genre. 3. We are seeing more varied depictions of male sexuality in ‘straight’ films – the prostate is not a taboo anymore and strap-on action or cross dressing for men are casually thrown into the films as part of a varied sex-scape.
It was also interesting to see how many female filmmakers are now documenting the female porn revolution: Ovidi and Anna Brownfield interviewed me and I interviewed Shine Louise Houston and Anna Brownfield. Everyone is working on their own documentary about porn for women making the topic accessible to more and more people.
The pornfilmfest was a huge success the cinemas were generally sold out and there was such a buzz in the air and it was fantastic to meet some of the 140 filmmaker that were present. We have become an international porn family – inspiring and supporting each other. I cannot wait to return to Berlin next year hopefully not just for the pornfilmfest but also to shoot a new film – if I can raise the money….
A big part of the pornfilmfest for me this year was the award I was giving to the winners of my erotic amateur film competition for women. But as it was so huge and so many exciting things happened, I will write a separate blog just about the Petra Joy Award 2009 – so read on…
After 4 months of trials and tribulations surrounding the Petra Joy Award (I will not bore you with the details with the many of what went wrong), the four winners have been awarded and celebrated in Berlin in the sold-out Movimento cinema. We had many amazing submissions from all over the world and the jury discussed long and hard about whom should win the prizes because all films were special in their own way.
The winners are Louise Lush (First Prize), Lola Clavo (Second Prize), Linsey Satterthwaite (Third Prize) and Cora Emens (Special Jury Award).
Even though the creative style of the films varied there were some similarities in the films: One prevailing element of many films was the expression of what women want in bed: The first and third prize (“That’s what I like” and “I like it when”) both expressed visually and verbally what turns some women on. The common message is: the shame is over – women can now talk freely in public about what they desire sexually by making a film about female sexual pleasure. Some of the filmmakers such as Linsey Satterthwaite and Cora Emens decided not just to direct but also star in their films – an experience that both women perceived as extremely empowering.
The winner of the second prize, Lola Clavo portrayed sex and love as a power struggle in her experimental film “La Lucha” – with subtly blurred images and an impressive sound-scape.
The special jury award went to “Cora’s memoir – the rose” for the fearless and fun depiction of a very personal erotic memory of the film’s director who also starred in her movie. In an ageist society the film shows that a pleasurable and joyful sex life for women does exist for women who are aged 50 plus.
Before we set off to the cinema for the screening of the films and the award ceremony, I threw a mini party for all the winners and their partners and the girls had their make-up done by a pro. I like the icing on the cake and the cherry on top, so I decided last minute that I would hire a stretch limo for the girls as a surprise and take them around Berlin and to the cinema in style.
It was such an amazing feeling when we got into the limo to drink champagne and toast each other – a spirit of sisterhood and women getting together to celebrate their sexuality and sharing their vision with the world rather than hiding away. I hope that for the winners as well as me this will be a night to remember.
It was a fantastic buzz when we arrived at the cinema there was so many people and so much press everywhere – but it stressed me a bit that there were so many cameras. This was a very personal event for me and I wanted the people who bought tickets and the filmmakers themselves to enjoy it in a relaxed manner…I did not know who most of the cameras belonged to and was worried that people will perceive the event as a media circus when it was meant as a revolutionary grass roots event celebrating and supporting new female talent. It was bad enough that due to a legal battle with a German magazine that had copyrighted the term “Joy” I had to rename my award into the “Petra Joy Award” which drew more attention to me than I am comfortable with. I did this competition so that the focus is on new emerging talent. It is about the joy of giving , passing something on to other women rather than just publishing my very own vision over and over again.
To me this evening was the highlight of my ‘career’ as an erotic filmmaker. Five years ago I set out to make my first film with a bunch of friends and one camera in my bedroom – a few award-winning films, one book, film compilation, documentary and many workshops later I am finally able to pass the batton on to the next generation of female erotic filmmakers. I am really proud that I was able to inspire these women and hope to be a catalyst for many more films that are being made. It is a great feeling that the genre ‘porn for women’ will continue to exist in Europe – even if I never did never shoot another film. We have done it – women are finding their visual language and expressing all their different fantasies on film. I am so glad I made my dreams come true and hope many women will do the same. Walt Disney used to say: “If you can dream it, you can do it!”; I say: “If you can dream it, you can shoot it!”.
All winning films will be published on my forthcoming compilation “Her Porn, volume2”. Out in Spring 2010. You can read more about the winners and their films, as well as viewing clips of the winners, at www.joyawards.com
PS: After I said at the event that I now want to focus on another matter close to me heart: the environment, rather than just and exclusively on ‘porn for women’, the rumour mill went into overdrive that this was my good-bye and I will never ever shoot another erotic film. This is not true. I would love to shoot another erotic film and hope to be able to finance it. But there are so many other talented women creating porn for women right now that it is OK for me to diversify which missions I use my talents for!
Finally, I want to take this opportunity to thank all submitting filmmakers, my sponsor pjur and the pornfilmfest Berlin for being our host.
It is with great pleasure that I received the invitation to the “Poryes “event in Berlin. This event is organised by the sex positive activist Dr. Laura Meritt and her team and is the first feminist porn award in Europe. The award ceremony and big bash celebrate pioneers in feminist porn. My dear friends Candida Royalle, Maria Beatty and Annie Sprinkle will receive an award as well a myself and Shine Louise Houston from America who I have not yet met.
Of course it is symbolic that the event happens during the Venus show – Europe’s biggest adult trade show – that is still firmly in male hands, catering almost exclusively to men and their desires. It is hard to be taken seriously as an artist or businesswoman in this world that still likes to reduce pretty much every woman to objects. But sometimes even women and feminists do not value our efforts to express female fantasies and portray a more accurate and humane image of (female) sexuality.
Only two years ago the German feminist magazine “Emma” stated: “Porn for women is a myth”. Not so. I myself was very active in the anti-porn movement of the eighties. I still do not like a lot of misogynist porn that I see but the time has come to be heard and seen by creating alternatives rather than leaving the creation of erotic films exclusively in male hands.
As a woman and a feminist it feels good to be celebrated by other feminists who do appreciate the work we are doing to inspire and empower women. To be a feminist does not mean anymore to be against any kind of porn but instead to appreciate the films that genuinely portray female sexuality, that respect the performers’ boundaries and promote safe sex.
“Poryes” says “Yes” to free-range, female-made porn that meets certain criteria. And it feels good to say ‘Yes’ rather than ‘No’ all the time. It gives us a choice and to have a choice is empowering. We can take it or leave it, rather than being excluded.
The other night I went to see “Sister Sledge” play and their anthem is still playing in my head:
“We are family, I got all my sisters with me!”. And this is what it feels like right now: We are connecting and building networks world-wide: The female filmmakers, performers, sex shop owners and the sexual teachers. For a long time America was ahead of us. Now Europe is catching up. Fast. And together we are unstoppable. We are family!
For more info on the “Poryes” event and tickets to the amazing event, look here: http://www.poryes.de
I have just returned from Vienna where I took part in a panel discussion on “Porn for women”. I was not sure how this would go down in Vienna – as it has the reputation of being rather conservative. But the event took off in a sold-out rather posh night club. In fact there was so much last minute demand for tickets that the organiser said: “…next time I rent the town hall!”
Before the panel discussion they beamed one of my trailers onto a massive screen and even though I have seen my films a million times, it still gives me a kick to show them to a new audience who have no idea what to expect. The reactions were positive – lots of surprised but also smiling and happy faces and applause.
The other panellists were Laura Meritt from Sexklusivitaeten in Berlin, the sexy comedienne Barbara Bellini, Dr. Georg Pfau, plus Judit Rabenstein who runs an upmarket sex shop in Vienna called Magnolias and who initiated the event.
I enjoyed that fact that Dr. Pfau confirmed my theory that women like guy candy and to watch men make out. He agreed that for straight women men are the main object of desire and to watch two, three or more of them interact is one of the key fantasies – just like for straight men who like to watch women play with each other… a fact that mainstream porn by and for men has always catered for.
Laura made a point mentioning that watching alternative porn can open the doors beyond our sometimes limited perception of who we are and what we like, to show us new sexual orientation and techniques that we might not normally allow ourselves to see or be.
Ms Bellini questioned me to find out if I show male prostate stimulation and was relieved that I do and now wants to show some clippings of my films during her stand up performances.
Judit explained that the demand for erotic films that a couple can view together or that turn women on is growing all the time.
So we all agreed that we had a lot of catching up to do and are curious of more films showing us erotica from a female perspective. Sadly there was no time for questions by the audience afterwards but I had a good chat with a couple afterwards who said they do not like films without a story and dialogue but hate the bad acting in porn and the fact that in films that feature great acting the sex is always soft. I recommended that they make their one little film – dress up, play roles and be surprised to see their faces in ecstasy on screen – possibly for the first time. It can be empowering to be the architect and object of your own desires captured on film.
I left Vienna on a high – based on the feeling that we have truly arrived. Porn for women is being produced, viewed and discussed all over the world now. The genre is here to stay. And so are women who express themselves and live out their fantasies. Sisters are doing it!
I have always been intrigued by female ejaculation. I saw it happening live for the first time during last year’s pornfilmfest during the performances and the workshop of the incredible Wendy Delorme.
Like so many women I always assumed that not every woman can ejaculate – maybe only one in ten.
I could not have been more wrong.
A few days back I received an email from Deborah Sundahl whose life’s work is to teach and empower women all over the world to ejaculate. Deborah wanted to meet me during her next trip to Europe to see if we can work together. She sent me some of her superb videos and to my amazement the first video I watched (Female Ejaculation – the workshop) Deborah makes clear that EVERY WOMAN – if her g-spot is stimulated in the right way with the right stimulation – will release ejaculate fluid. So the fact is: EVERY WOMAN CAN EJACULATE BECAUSE EVERY WOMAN HAS A G-SPOT!
The g-spot is the female prostate and the female ejaculate is prostatic fluid with a completely different consistency than urine. We are wrongly made to believe that “female ejaculation is a myth” and “female ejaculate is urine”.
I will publish some of Deborah’s footage on my next compilation and an interview with her so that more women can find out how to have a completely different and incredibly intense kind of orgasm.
I feel privileged and blessed that Deborah will visit me and run a very private workshop just for my girlfriend and me – I can’t wait and will tell you all about how it went so watch this space!
For more info on Deborah and female ejaculation, look here: www.isismedia.org
I am happy that more and more amazing films are arriving that show fresh new insights as to what women find erotic . I am glad that I am able to inspire women to express themselves. It is a huge step for women not just to say: “Yes, I am watching porn!” but to go one step further and to actually make their own film, share it with the public and talk about it.
But it has not all been sweet scented roses – my short film competition seems to have stepped on some sensitive toes. One company threatened to sue me for the use of the name “Joy Awards” and as I do not have the financial means to battle this out in court, I had to rename the “Joy Award” to the “Petra Joy Award”. I am not too happy about this as I do not want this to be all about me, Petra Joy but about the JOY of female self expression. But after the initial bill of my solicitor cost me a small fortune, I had to count my losses and move on – even though my solicitor assured me that I could win this case if I was prepared to invest considerably more money and time. One month from the event I was not prepared to do anything that could endanger the event. So the “Petra Joy Award” it is.
More problems came from an unexpected quarter:
I was criticised by some women who are actually fighting for the same causes as I do for timing my event badly and stealing the publicity from their event. I was shocked by that accusation especially as I had suggested to the very same women to join forces and create a shared event. My offer was rejected. I think, the more the merrier: The more of us say and do things, the more likely it is that we will be heard and seen. The more likely it is that people understand we are not a one-off phenomenon but we are here to stay. Women want porn from a female perspective and this desire is here to stay.
Sometimes it can be frustrating when I feel attacked from various sides and I wonder why I do what I do – a non profit making event to mentor new female filmmakers. But then I get an email like this and it makes it all worthwhile. Sarah who just finished a film (her first ever) for the competition wrote to me:
“Whatever the outcome of this effort I just wanted to say how much I enjoyed it! Having only been filmed for the first time in June of this year it was all a little daunting but I do like a challenge! We have over an hour of out-takes and had to do it all over two sessions. I had no idea of the work that goes into these things and also exactly how un-glamorous it can be…and we are just amateurs! Should the opportunity ever arise, I would love to come and see how a professional production is created!”
I cannot wait to view all the films and award the winners with their trophies and of course the cash prizes sponsored by pjur. The best film will also be seen on “Her Porn, volume two” and short clips will be available on the website: www.joyawards.com
It has been a while since I have been on here sharing my experiences. I was just so busy I could just not think even think straight. Since I was mentioned in the German ‘Marie Claire’ the media interest has been incredible. And many days were spent consulting TV producers and giving print interviews… But I had a mini-break last weekend staying at a holistic spa and now I am back – ready to share some thoughts with you.
After 4 months of work my documentary, “The Joy Of Porn” is finally ready. I managed to condense 150 hours of footage shot during the last three years into one hour of my personal journey as a feminist pornographer.
It was a strange experience to edit a film about me, my allies and my mission. Normally I am strictly behind the camera and that goes for my work in television as much as for my work as an erotic filmmaker. But somehow I felt that this story of female empowerment and friendships that have managed to change the adult industry and public perception of porn is worth telling.
Most of the footage is fly-on-the-wall filmed by my partner and friends – whoever had two free hands was handed the camera to shoot what was happening and on some adventures Violetta (who is starring in my films) and I filmed each other as we could not afford yet to have someone travel with us for the purpose of filming.
But this way we got very intimate footage that a TV crew could have not achieved in the same way.
On Thursday evening I will throw a party for all the lovely people that have worked with me over the years. It is the fifth birthday of “Strawberry Seductress” my production company and we will celebrate with champagne, canapés and the private preview of “The Joy Of Porn”.
I am incredibly nervous about this – much more so than if I had shot another erotic film as this film is very personal and so close to my heart.
But it will be a pleasure to get everyone together for a big bash as it’s been a while since we all partied together. The official world premiere will be on the 14.10.2009 at the Berlin Pornfilmfest at 23:00 at the Movimento Cinema in Berlin. More info here: www.pornfilmfestivalberlin.de
I am not yet sure where this film will be available but there will be a trailer up on the news page shortly.