I was really looking forward to autumn. This is normally a really busy time of the year for me, a time to network, be creative and expand. I was particularly keen to start editing my new feature “The Female Voyeur” and to run my “Female Fantasies” confessional booth at Erotica in London.
But things went horribly wrong. Three weeks ago I started to be very sick with high fever, nausea and pain. I thought it was just a tummy bug or harmless infection. So rest and antibiotics were ordered. But nothing helped and after an X-ray I found myself last week rushed to hospital for an emergency operation to do with my kidneys. I had to put everything on hold and cancel the edit and my stint at Erotica – with a very heavy heart as I always like to finish what I have started. I usually enjoy being a busy bee and hate to be forced to be a couch potato right now. (more…)
I LOVE “Spartacus: Blood and Sand” – the new TV series. It is hothothot! I love the huge variety of hunky guys on it. Not only do they have fit bodies but gorgeous faces too and I drool over them without shame. Whilst my partner enjoys the CGI fight scenes, I love the sex scenes, especially when they are guy-on-guy or orgies. It is a beautifully shot and post-produced programme. I wish I could afford a tenth of their budget and technology for my new film. In the meantime I enjoy watching the guys – it is not often that we get to see some guy candy making out on prime-time TV. (more…)
It has been a while since I have been on here sharing my experiences. I was just so busy I could just not think even think straight. Since I was mentioned in the German ‘Marie Claire’ the media interest has been incredible. And many days were spent consulting TV producers and giving print interviews… But I had a mini-break last weekend staying at a holistic spa and now I am back – ready to share some thoughts with you.
After 4 months of work my documentary, “The Joy Of Porn” is finally ready. I managed to condense 150 hours of footage shot during the last three years into one hour of my personal journey as a feminist pornographer.
It was a strange experience to edit a film about me, my allies and my mission. Normally I am strictly behind the camera and that goes for my work in television as much as for my work as an erotic filmmaker. But somehow I felt that this story of female empowerment and friendships that have managed to change the adult industry and public perception of porn is worth telling.
Most of the footage is fly-on-the-wall filmed by my partner and friends – whoever had two free hands was handed the camera to shoot what was happening and on some adventures Violetta (who is starring in my films) and I filmed each other as we could not afford yet to have someone travel with us for the purpose of filming.
But this way we got very intimate footage that a TV crew could have not achieved in the same way.
On Thursday evening I will throw a party for all the lovely people that have worked with me over the years. It is the fifth birthday of “Strawberry Seductress” my production company and we will celebrate with champagne, canapés and the private preview of “The Joy Of Porn”.
I am incredibly nervous about this – much more so than if I had shot another erotic film as this film is very personal and so close to my heart.
But it will be a pleasure to get everyone together for a big bash as it’s been a while since we all partied together. The official world premiere will be on the 14.10.2009 at the Berlin Pornfilmfest at 23:00 at the Movimento Cinema in Berlin. More info here: www.pornfilmfestivalberlin.de
I am not yet sure where this film will be available but there will be a trailer up on the news page shortly.
high you know how I feel
Sun in the sky you know how I feel
Reeds drifting on by you know how I feel
Its a new dawn
Its a new day
Its a new life
And I’m feeling good
Fish in the sea you know how I feel
River running free you know how I feel
Blossom in the tree you know how I feel
Dragonfly out in the sun you know what I mean, don’t you know
Butterflies all having fun you know what I mean
Sleep in peace when day is done
That’s what I mean
And this old world is a new world
And a bold world
Stars when you shine you know how I feel
Scent of the pine you know how I feel
Oh freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
I am feeling good….”
If any lyrics can describe how high and happy I feel after the wonderful blue wedding weekend then it is “Feeling good” by Nina Simone.
I have just returned from two days filled with sunshine, smiles and inspiration. The weekend kicked off with the BLEU body paint workshop and it felt great to get naked and ‘paint’ on huge sheets of paper using our bodies. We all had memories of being carefree children and being naked and creative all the time. Somewhere along the lines when we “grow up” we start to feel ashamed of both – our naked bodies and our creativity out of fear of not being good enough. No fear here as nine adults and a baby imprinted their bodies onto the walls of the Rotunda at Grove House – a fantastic Bohemian performance space and home of our lovely hostess Polly. The workshop was lead by Professor Luke Dixon and supported by Annie Sprinkle herself whose famous ‘tit prints’ take body art to another dimension….After we left our permanent prints on the walls we had to get the remaining paint off our bodies. We had just as much fun painting hosing each other down with ice cold water glistening in the afternoon sun as when we were doing the body prints.
All around us a heave of activity had erupted with many creative, helping hands creating decorations for Annie’s and Beth’s wedding. Tiny paper flowers and booklets imprinted with the message “Love always already is” were hand-made for button holes. A giant sun and moon mask and heart bunters were attached to walls and fences and a beautiful swing, adorned with blue ribbons was hung up in a tree.
Violetta and I enjoyed some Pimms and lovely home-made Pub food before we had an early night with a big day ahead for both of us: me filming the event and Violetta performing and helping me with the second camera.
As it had rained Saturday night we went to bed expecting a grey, cloudy English sky and rain for Sunday but we woke up to a bright blue sky – an English summer’s day at its best !
When we arrived at Grove House everybody was already dressed up in their blue and sky themed outfits as clouds, stars, sun, moon and more. I received my headband made of ivy and daisies that all the girls of the bridal party got and wore it with pride along with my heart-shaped sun glasses and turquoise Monroe dress.
Annie and Beth took their time to get into their opulent and sky-themed outfits and I had the chance to shoot some fun footage behind the scenes inside the bride and brides bedroom. They also shared the secret of their lasting relationship with me: Supporting each other and giving each other space when needed.
The wedding procession was spectacular with beautiful people in some of the best fantasy outfits I have ever seen. They sauntered on stage to the notes of “Here comes the sun”. It was a real Wow moment, as if we all had gotten onto the magical mystery tour.
The MC Veronica Hart introduced the brides and delivered to them the heart-felt wished of their friends from the States: Candida Royalle, Veronica Vera, Nina Heartly and many more. And I thought what a wonderful circle of strong, sexy women who have supported each other for decades now. ‘Sex in the city’ – eat your heart out!
The ceremony was a joy – fun and free-flowing with an abundance of creative performances from spoken word to song and dance – the complete opposite of the confinements of conventional weddings. Love as a giant art happening – what a fab concept!
Violetta premiered a stunning performance piece where she unlaced her slinky dress and very slowly stripped off whilst reciting with a quivering voice an erotic poem she had written for her lover – she had me and everyone mesmerized. What a joy to see such a good friend grow and spread her wings and fly higher and higher, the more adventures we share. This girl will go far and further!
Then it was time for Annie’s and Beth’s vows and as this year their fifth wedding was themed with the throat chakra/colour blue and the sky they vowed to each other to work on their communication and meet even more of their partners needs by not just talking more but becoming better listeners. Both brides did not just marry each other but the sky as well – taking this opportunity to focus on environmental issues such as the mountain top removal and both pledging to save more energy and becoming vegetarians (after eating just one more rib eye steak Beth conceded to the laughing crowd).
The ceremony was followed by a fun filled kaleidoscope of events. The instant showgirl workshop was fun on the lawn when fifty guys and girls were shown how to hold their head up high and kick their legs high. There was also ballroom dancing. The music was unashamedly sensual and romantic. OK, I admit when I filmed thirty couples of so with Annie and Beth in the middle twirl to “What the world needs now is love, sweet love” I had a happy tear or two in my eyes….
The tossing of the blue garter was a great surprise as a much chuffed Violetta caught it from Annie, meaning that she will have a lovely fling. Veronica Hart caught the bridal bouquet from Beth – so she is the one who will get married next…
The celebrations were rounded off with an ‘oracle session’. A beautiful girl with long black hair in a white dress was floating in an eco hot tub surrounded by pages torn from a book. You could whisper a question to her and she would reveal the future. The queue was long and the predictions were many. Yes, it is a make believe world but how wonderful it is to believe in magic and come out and play with so many kindred spirits and share the love, even just for one day.
As for the brides – there is no need for an oracle to tell them that they will live happily ever after…
I love weddings – especially if they are of the unconventional, magical kind. And this one sure is: On Sunday, the 14th of June the wonderful ex-porn performer, director-cum-art activist and tantric teacher Annie Sprinkle will marry her big love – artist and professor Elizabeth Stephens on the “Blue wedding”. This is their fifth wedding to date. They are completely in love and marry each year based on a different chakra colour and spiritual theme. Annie says: “Love is the new sex!” and enjoys delving deeper and deeper into this intimate, committed romance. This year the theme of the wedding is the throat chakra, standing for communication, symbolised by the colour blue. The wedding will take place at the wonderful Grove House in Oxford. Over 50 artists are coming from around the world to co-create and present the dream performance-art wedding. The invitation sounds enticing:
“Eco-sexual brides, artists Annie Sprinkle and Elizabeth Stevens, will make sacred wedding vows to their lover the sky. Yes, the sky with the stars, planets, sun, and sexy clouds.
Some of many highlights of the wedding ritual will be Luke Dixon officiating the vows and sky kiss, actor/director Veronica Hart as the High Priestess, merman Johnathan McCloskey’s boylesque, throat examinations by Nurse Luby, family friendly striptease by Zoe Snelgrove, a flying ring barer, a heart opening chant, love poems, music, carbon capture kissing, glamorous blue bridal parties. Then enjoy the wedding reception with Del La Grace Volcano, Sheep Woman Philippa Jeffery, bubble sculpture, the I Love Myself Confessional, waltzing lessons with Dorothy Max Prior, cake eating, supping bubbly, garter toss, petal throwing, swing on a cloud swing, get party favors, and enjoy BLUE entertainment.
Dress: Wear as much blue as possible and dress in the themes of the wedding; communication, throat, and all things sky related. Dress as costumey and creatively as you like and don’t be worried about showing up the brides.”
Annie and Beth have very generous hearts and make their wedding ceremonies open events as they love sharing and connecting people. Annie says:
“Everyone is welcome to attend, even if you are the kind of person that hates weddings. No material gifts please, your presence is the gift!”
I am honoured and excited to be the official wedding videographer for Annie and Beth. Together with my dear friend Violetta we will have a fabulous time in Oxford, sipping Pimms on the lawn, enjoying a beautiful, blessed wedding and meeting lots of colourful and creative people from all over the world! Hope to see you there.
More Info on the wedding and tickets for Annie’s and Beth’s LOVE ART LAB performance (Friday, 12th June 7-9 at Grove House) and a body print workshop (running on Saturday, 13th June at 11 am or 3 pm) based on the work of Ives Klein (facilitated by Luke Dixon, Annie Sprinkle and Elizabeth Stephens) is available here: www.grovehouse.info and www.anniesprinkle.org
We hope to share pictures and impressions with you when we get back from our very special weekend away.
I had a wonderful time in Greece. Blue skies and turquoise sea all around… As it was still pre-season we managed to find some secluded beaches via our four wheel drive Jeep where we could be naked all day long.
This is one of my favourite things – swimming naked in the sea. The freedom of floating and gliding without any restrictions. If you have never swam naked in the sea before, I really recommend you to try it – a small bit of material makes a huge difference. I am an enthusiastic nudist – it just feels so natural to be naked and I feel really hemmed in by most clothes and shoes. So it was great to spend a week naked on the beach and in the sea. I felt fully dressed in my bikini when I went to pick the day’s supplies – tomatoes, feta cheese, olives and fresh bread – at the supermarket. It felt strange to wear multiple layers of clothes, socks and shoes on the flight back home.
For the first time in ages I feel fully recharged, relaxed and ready for the many exciting projects ahead…
Whilst I was away my bunnies grew up fast – they are now five times the size from when they were born only two weeks ago and bounce around my lounge with endless energy. They are perfect little creatures, fluffy miniature version of their parents and I doubt I will be able to part from them when the time comes to find them a home in two months time.
And now the sunshine has also arrived in the UK and the days are warm, glorious and long.
I make the most of it picking strawberries at the p.y.o. farm and taking my laptop into the garden with me. Knowing England, you just have to make the most of the sun as this kind of weather tends not to last for long. I love summer time because the living is easy and it feels like live energy is bursting out of every single flower, bee and butterfly. I hope the sun shines where you are and you can take some time out to enjoy it.
That reminds me; Del Monte is about to launch a giant ice cream lolly in the shape of Daniel Craig in his tight shorts from that infamous beach scene in OO7 – ripped abs and all. I must go out and get one. I will enjoy – for pure research reasons only of course!
In the last few weeks I have been editing my documentary every day from 8 a.m. until 8 p.m. and it was a welcome break from staring at the screen to play with my bunnies Silver and Brownie for a few minutes every so often. I noticed that Brownie’s belly was bulging and she started ripping out her fur and gathering hay to build a padded nest. I had a feeling that she was pregnant but the Vet told me that he can’t feel any baby bunnies and she was too young anyway, so she diagnosed a “fake pregnancy”. But she and Silver had had a lot of sex before he got neutered – so there was a possibility.
Last Sunday she did not want to leave the hutch to roam around my lounge as usual and when I checked her half an hour later she was licking her newborn baby bunnies dry. They are tiny, helpless creatures – naked and still blind when they were born. They curled up under the fluffy fur nest to sleep and grow and Brownie bounced up and down the sofa as is nothing had happened. So I now have four bunnies – two munchkins and two mini-munchkins. They are one week old now and have already got tiny teeth, claws and a sleek fur coat. I have been in too much awe with those little lives to drag them out of the nest in order to take pictures but once they are out and about in a week or so, I will be spending a lot of time watching them and taking pictures. I never thought that it would have such an impact on my life to get bunnies for my birthday six months ago but it has made me calmer and happier to have those curious, cute and intelligent creatures around.
So it is with mixed feelings that I set off on holiday to Greece for a week tomorrow. The bunnies are in safe hands with my neighbour but I will miss a whole week of growth and development of the babies. However it’s been almost 2 years since I last had a holiday and I need to recharge as when I come back I have many exciting projects lined up.
I will tell you all about it, when I get back hopefully all glowing next week.
I hope the sun will shine on you too. Enjoy.
I just got home from a screening of European short films at the “End of The Pier International Film Festival” near the seaside town I call home. The cinema was EMPTY – I was the only person watching and even though I felt honoured to receive this involuntary VIP treatment, I felt sad for the festival organisers. Like many cultural events and other film festivals, they have had to deal with many budget cuts – when the economy nosedives, culture pays the price first. It’s a glorious sunny day and yes the garden or beach was tempting but I wanted to show my support for other film-makers and always enjoy being inspired by films from all over the world – so many different film-makers, so many unique styles and ways to view the world.
My favourite was a film called “Red Sands” by David Proctor. A very poetic and visually exciting essay on bullfighting in Pamplona. It was shot with just one camera and the many intense close-up and slow motion shots really made it stand out. The voice-over of an old and wise Spanish Senor who loves and hates the ritualistic killing of the bulls carried it through. This was breath-taking, astounding, exciting film-making. Hats off. As I am in the process of editing my 100 hours of footage from the past 2 years into a one hour programme, well-made documentaries that break the mould are a true inspiration right now.
And the rare diamonds one gets to see at independent festivals just don’t compare to Hollywood block busters or prime-time TV. It’s the people who make films for the love of it rather than for the money that tend to create films that touch us. I just hope that more people will get and take the chance to see these kind of indie films as the film-makers get more experienced at networking and publishing their films in innovative ways off- and online.
I nearly spluttered my soya latte when I opened today’s paper – there was a full page ad featuring a hunk with tool belt and the tagline read “I’m free”. This was an ad for Allied Carpets offering free fitting when buying a carpet. We are so used to seeing women and female bodies selling anything from car tyres to power tools that it almost seems normal that free sex is part of the package in most ads.
I have never been comfortable with women being objectified – reduced to their bodies and stripped of their personalities. And it’s certainly not a solution to objectify men but it makes a refreshing change to see male sex objects in the mainstream. It opens our eyes to what it feels like being a woman being confronted daily with images of women that are available at no cost. But it also reflects a cultural change, a subtle shift of women wanting to be the voyeur, enjoying looking at and fantasizing about hunky men. Women being subjects and men objects – for a change.
I also enjoy porn scenes that turn standard role perceptions upside down and reveal how dated they really are. I adore the scene “Not so tender is the night” from “Ecstatic Moments” by Marianna Beck. It features a naked man on stage in a nightclub being cheered on by randy women who want to watch him play with himself and come. All the women in the audience are well known feminists and accomplished fighters of female sexual liberations such as Betty Dobson and Candida Royalle. You will be able to see this previously in Europe unpublished scene on my brand-new compilation HER PORN (out in May).
I have just been watching “Stud Hunters” again, Candida Royalle’s masterpiece on a porn director and her leading lady that set out to find the perfect stud for the new film production. The casting scene s are hilarious featuring a huge variety of male wanna-be porn stars from geek to gorgeous. They are asked to strip for the women and talk about their special talents. The climax of the film is when the female director test drives a chosen few beautiful men all at once. Rather than this becoming the usual mainstream porn gang bang scenario, it is the woman who calls the shots throughout. And all the men are eager to please her and respect and adore her like a queen bee. It is a really empowering film, playing with porn clichés, allowing men to become objects of desire and empowering women to be voyeurs and pleasure seekers. I will definitely show clips of this film in my documentary on porn from a female perspective that I am working on right now. I have just digitised 100 tapes that I shop over the past 12 months and really look forward to create a powerful documentary that sheds light on female fantasies, pleasures and desires. So keep an eye on this space.
Turns out things aren’t as bad as I thought. I heard back from my solicitor and he advised me that titles are indeed copyrighted – even if they were not registered.
Phew, what a relief!!! He will now act on my behalf and make sure that that porn film will not be distributed (at least in Germany) under my title.
Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed from the “big” industry, kind of like a little David and they are the Goliath. This scenario might be true often enough, but not always; there is such thing as justice and I am so glad that in some ways the law protects creative people from being ripped off.
So it’s all good today. The sun is shining in my garden, my bunnies are frisky and I’m smiling again.
Enjoy these daffodil-days and the spring magic!