After the disappointment at the Copenhagen Summit 2009, many people around the world are full of fire to make change. There are so many battles to fight: womens rights, rehabilitation for Haiti, and of course, taking care of Mother Earth. Lately, I've uncovered a few gems (ethically mined, of course!) from people who are doing great things by combining a green conscience and sexuality. Read more..

On the 7.2.2010, a "pro-life" ad ran on one of the most-watched televised events in the USA - the Super Bowl. The ad's theme: football star Tim Tebow was once a fetus whose birth posed significant medical risks to his mother. A doctor advised her to abort the child. She, obviously, did not. And guess what? Her son is now a star athlete and sporting hero of the nation. She calls him her "miracle baby". Read more..

It has been an amazing year for women's porn. I am happy I could contribute in various ways to what feels like the breakthrough of the genre in Europe. I am particularly proud of publishing the first ever feminist porn compilation "Her Porn, Volume 1" which has been a huge success. Throughout curating this exciting compilation many fantastic friendships with fellow filmmakers were born. Read more..

I feel privileged and blessed to be able to explore and express my sexuality freely. Erotic exploration and sexual pleasures are a birthright of every human but are still an unobtainable luxury to many women who do not live in the Western world. How many women around the world can't even begin to think about freely expressing and exploring their sexual desires because their basic human rights aren't secure? This Christmas, I want to make a difference by helping a cause that is very close to my heart. I'm donating part of the proceeds of my DVD sales to support "The Foundation for Women's Health, Research and Development" (FORWARD), who are working to end female genital mutilation (FGM) in Africa and beyond. Read more..

Since Berlin, I've been flooded with press inquiries and have been running through the footage I shot there, including the Petra Joy Awards. I have been viewing and editing non-stop. So I have had no time to share my adventures in this blog until now but you can now view videos of my time in Berlin. The videos will take you behind the scenes and show you the wild and wonderful journey that took place that week. The videos are available on my YouTube channel right now. Read more..

After 4 months of trials and tribulations surrounding the Petra Joy Award (I will not bore you with the details with the many of what went wrong), the four winners have been awarded and celebrated in Berlin in the sold-out Movimento cinema. We had many amazing submissions from all over the world and the jury discussed long and hard about whom should win the prizes because all films were special in their own way. Read more..

I just returned from two jam-packed weeks in Berlin where I attended the Venus trade show and the fourth pornfilmfest, won the poryes award, hosted the Petra Joy Award and was followed around non-stop by endless TV crews. It has all been really exciting but as I never got to sleep more than 5 hours a night it has been exhausting. All work and hardly any play and it was weird having to turn down so may kind offers for cups of coffee or glasses of wine because I simply did not have any free time to socialise... Let me fill you in on new and exciting events and encounters that have inspired me. Read more..

It is with great pleasure that I received the invitation to the "Poryes" event in Berlin. This event is organised by the sex-positive activist Dr. Laura Meritt and her team and is the first feminist porn award in Europe. The award ceremony and big bash celebrate pioneers in feminist porn. My dear friends Candida Royalle, Maria Beatty and Annie Sprinkle will receive an award as well myself and Shine Louise Houston from America who I have not yet met. Read more..

I have just returned from Vienna where I took part in a panel discussion on "Porn for women". I was not sure how this would go down in Vienna - as it has the reputation of being rather conservative. But the event took off in a sold-out rather posh night club. In fact there was so much last minute demand for tickets that the organiser said: "...next time I rent the town hall!" Read more..

I have always been intrigued by female ejaculation. I saw it happening live for the first time during last year's pornfilmfest during the performances and the workshop of the incredible Wendy Delorme. Like so many women I had always assumed that not every woman can ejaculate - maybe only one in ten. I could not have been more wrong... Read more..

I am happy that more and more amazing films are arriving that show fresh new insights as to what women find erotic. I am glad that I am able to inspire women to express themselves. It is a huge step for women not just to say: "Yes, I am watching porn!" but to go one step further and to actually make their own film, share it with the public and talk about it. Read more..

It has been a while since I have been on here sharing my experiences. I was just so busy I could just not think even think straight. Since I was mentioned in the German 'Marie Claire' the media interest has been incredible. And many days were spent consulting TV producers and giving print interviews... But I had a mini-break last weekend staying at a holistic spa and now I am back - ready to share some thoughts with you. Read more..

The deadline of my erotic short film competition for women is still 6 weeks away but I am eagerly awaiting submissions. I can't wait to see as many different female visions of erotica on film as possible. Read more..

Because I have been down and out for most of last week with a nasty flu (thank goddess it's not swine flu!), I was not able to work much on completing my documentary but was tucked up in bed watching - vintage porn. A couple of weekends ago I found some real gems on a local market where someone was selling clearance DVDs for 2 quid a pop. There were no R18 hard-core films but they usually bore me anyway. I picked up a couple of films by Jess Franco and a Russ Meyer movie... Read more..

I spent the first part of this year creating my compilation "Her Porn" which is a celebration of the female pioneers of porn from a female perspective. To look back and take stock also made me look ahead and think about the future of this genre and new generations of female erotic filmmakers. I truly believe that we will become more and more. This is not a flimsy fashion that will soon subside. Read more..

I have just returned from two days filled with sunshine, smiles and inspiration. The weekend kicked off with the BLEU body paint workshop and it felt great to get naked and 'paint' on huge sheets of paper using our bodies. We all had memories of being carefree children and being naked and creative all the time. Somewhere along the lines when we "grow up" we start to feel ashamed of both - our naked bodies and our creativity out of fear of not being good enough. No fear here as nine adults and a baby imprinted their bodies onto the walls of the Rotunda at Grove House - a fantastic Bohemian performance space and home of our lovely hostess Polly. The workshop was lead by Professor Luke Dixon and supported by Annie Sprinkle herself whose famous 'tit prints' take body art to another dimension... After we left our permanent prints on the walls we had to get the remaining paint off our bodies. We had just as much fun hosing each other down with ice cold water glistening in the afternoon sun as when we were doing the body prints. Read more..

I love weddings - especially if they are of the unconventional, magical kind. And this one sure is: On Sunday, the 14th of June, the wonderful ex-porn performer, director-cum-art activist and tantric teacher Annie Sprinkle will marry her big love - artist and professor Elizabeth Stephens on the "Blue wedding". This is their fifth wedding to date. They are completely in love and marry each year based on a different chakra colour and spiritual theme. Annie says: "Love is the new sex!" and enjoys delving deeper and deeper into this intimate, committed romance. This year the theme of the wedding is the throat chakra, standing for communication, symbolised by the colour blue. Read more..

I had a wonderful time in Greece. Blue skies and turquoise sea all around... As it was still pre-season we managed to find some secluded beaches via our four wheel drive Jeep where we could be naked all day long. Read more..

In the last few weeks I have been editing my documentary every day from 8 until 8 and it was a welcome break from staring at the screen to play with my bunnies Silver and Brownie for a few minutes every so often. I noticed that Brownie's belly was bulging and she started ripping out her fur and gathering hay to build a padded nest. I had a feeling that she was pregnant but the Vet told me that he can't feel any baby bunnies and she was too young anyway, so she diagnosed a "fake pregnancy". But she and Silver had had a lot of sex before he got neutered - so there was a possibility. Read more..

I just got home from a screening of European short films at the End of The Pier International Film Festival near the seaside town I call home. The cinema was EMPTY - I was the only person watching and even though I felt honoured to receive this involuntary VIP treatment, I felt sad for the festival organisers. Like many cultural events and other film festivals, they have had to deal with many budget cuts - when the economy nosedives, culture pays the price first. Read more..

I am back from Cologne and had a blast. The three days were jam-packed - first visiting the small trade show EROTIKA where I networked with dealers and producers and was filmed for a German TV programme called "Women talk about sex". Read more..

I nearly spluttered my soya latte when I opened today's paper - there was a full page ad featuring a hunk with tool belt and the tagline read "I'm free". This was an ad for Allied Carpets offering free fitting when buying a carpet. We are so used to seeing women and female bodies selling anything from car tyres to power tools that it almost seems normal that free sex is part of the package in most ads. Read more..

Turns out things aren't as bad as I thought. I heard back from my solicitor and he advised me that titles are indeed copyrighted - even if they were not registered. Read more..

I am delighted to say that my latest film "Her Porn" - a compilation of some of the best porn by and for women - is almost finished. This is a bitter-sweet time. It is a climax and an anticlimax to finish a project I have been working for almost a year now. Read more..

Reading the current issue of an adult trade magazine made me look at a new release catalogue from a German distribution company. I could not believe my eyes when I saw that the company "12 Sextuary" was bringing out a film called - "Female Fantasies" - exactly the same title as my award-winning film that I published in 2007. Read more..

It is the year 2009 and you would think we have come a long way towards equality of the sexes, but the papers are full with reports of violence against women - it happens all the time on many different levels all around the world. Every time I hear or read about women being assaulted, violated, hurt - my heart sinks and I wish there was more that I could do rather than raising awareness and giving an annual donation to a local shelter for beaten women. Read more..

Did you know that only 6% if Hollywood directors are female and no female director has ever won an Oscar? This percentage falls even more when it comes to erotic films and awards - women directing sex films and wining adult industry awards for them are still a tiny, creative minority. Read more..

I have always believed that art can be porn and porn can be art. It is an exciting development that all alternative film festivals bring erotic films back to the big screen. It frees explicit erotic films from the "smut stigma" to be celebrated in cinemas by an appreciative audience. Read more..

It has been an exciting few weeks. I have been working on my compilation "HER PORN" non-stop. Not a day went by without me talking to some of the fantastic directors featured on this DVD. One day I am chatting to Candida Royalle and the next I am talking to Maria Beatty or emailing Shu Lea Cheang. I feel the other directors are more than just fellow erotic filmmakers but have become good friends. And it is so uplifting that we are now all supporting each other in matters such as distribution, on a regular basis. Read more..

I can't believe its December already. This year just flew by and I feel that my feet have barely touched the ground. It was a flurry of flights, festivals, trade shows, workshops, meetings and TV interviews.. Read more..

I overheard someone the other day speaking about Buck Angel - the man with a pussy - calling him "sick and twisted". She said angrily: "She claims to be a man but it is bullshit. She has a pussy so she is a woman pumped full of hormones. It's disgusting, really". I am always surprised by the strong reactions anybody provokes who dares to question gender stereotypes and indulges in some form of "gender bending".. Read more..

For a long time I was optimistic. The talk of the "credit crunch" is everywhere and I thought as I have no property to sell it won't really affect me. I will be OK, slowly making my way out of red and into black figures. Things were looking up. Read more..

I just got back from Erotica in London - the UK's busiest and biggest adult life style show. It has been an amazing experience and I am so glad that I was invited to take part giving my seminar "How to shoot your lover! Erotic film making for couples" Read more..

It is the night before Erotica. My flat looks like a warehouse that has been hit by a hurricane and my mind is buzzing. The phone has been ringing non-stop today and my inbox is overflowing following our being featured today in the Metro newspaper: Read more..

The third pornfilmfest has been and gone and for me it was the best so far. It was an honour to be invited to all three festivals and show my films to a large audience in a proper cinema. Unfortunately the last two festivals passed me by because of a whirlwind of media commitments, I finally had time this year to really enjoy the festival. Read more..

I had it all planned out: A 'women only' event. Women getting together to talk about 'porn for women'. I wanted two male butlers in the buff serving strawberries and champagne. The butlers being the "eye candy" for the girls - showing off their biceps, pecs and bums, serving the women in a polite manner. Women first. Women on top. Read more..

I did not enjoy visiting this year's Venus adult trade show in Berlin. It felt like being catapulted through a time warp into the 80's with its outdated representation of women and sexuality. Read more..

Sometimes the reality is better than the dream. To stand up on stage with all the other winners of this year's Venus Adult Industry Award, holding my big, fat heavy trophy high and my head even higher, singing along to "We are the champions!" is such a perfect moment frozen in time. Read more..

I always thought that if I could have any super power it would be to fly. But that's all changed now. I wish I could breathe under water. Ever since I started diving ten years ago I have loved to be weightless and watch magical coral gardens and resourceful under water creatures but until recently my adventures into the underwater realms were limited to the maximum time I could get out of tank of air. And that is never more than one hour when diving shallow and much less when diving deep. Read more..

"Action!" Maria shouts and an eleven-strong team of crew and performers click into gear. I watch in awe how Maria Beatty keeps calm, patient and in control on the set of her latest film "Bandaged". She is on a tight 12 day schedule, shooting her ambitious feature in Potsdam near Berlin. In the last decade Maria has directed and produced over 20 artistic lesbian fetish films. This is her second feature film - her attempt to bring an artistic presentation of lesbian sexuality onto the big screen. Read more..

Whilst in Berlin I had the chance to finally meet face to face Grit Scholz, the photographer and publisher of the Book "Das Tor ins Leben" (The gate to life). Grit has photographed 65 Vaginas of all shapes and sizes for her ground-breaking book and I interviewed her for my Forum article on vaginas. Read more..

The vibe was amazing. For two hours we waited and watched the lighting change around two giant M's that were erected around the stage. Every time the spotlight hit the giant clock, the crowd cheered. We were here to see Madonna rise and shine in the giant open air Olympic Stadium in Berlin. Read more..

I have just returned form the most exciting weekend in Amsterdam. I had been invited by the team of "Mail and Female", an excellent female-run sex shop, to do a presentation on how to make your own creative porn. Read more..

Sexism works both ways and that both genders lose if we remain stuck in rigid roles with no room to play, grow and develop. I had an email from a young guy that really touched me and brought home how much some men hate the fact that they do not feel physically desired by women. Read more..

Last night I had a fire in my garden just after sunset. All the wood burnt was from driftwood I had gathered on the beach earlier. There is something magical about simple pleasures that money can?t buy. If a pleasure costs nothing, it sets you free. Read more..

In the last two weeks my feet have barely touched the ground. I am on the plane right now on my way back from Madrid where I spent the last 5 days attending the FICEB award, buying outfits and props and networking. Read more..

Violetta (who stars in my films and has become one of my best friends) and I were invited to Amsterdam support the female run sex shop "Mail and Female" at the "Pinched" festival. Violetta was modelling their new range of underwear whilst I was photographing people in a tiny photo booth. It was a pleasure to meet the wonderful Annie Sprinkle again who headlined the event. Read more..

I just found out that I have two nominations for this year's international erotic film festival in Spain. I am so excited because I have been nominated as 'best director' and "Feeling it!", my new release is nominated as 'best film'. Read more..

In the summer the garden is my favourite room in the flat. I work and play in it - spending hours on the laptop in the sun. I am always on the lookout for unique trinkets to make this 'room' more magical. My most prized possession is the hot tub where many evenings are spent relaxing after a hard days work. Read more..

I have just returned from a trip to Amsterdam where I met and interviewed the fabulous Candida Royalle for my upcoming documentary on female pornographers. Candida who has been producing and directing sensual porn for women in the States for two decades now is not only a pioneer but veteran when it comes to visualising erotic female fantasies. Read more..

Last night I went to see "Sex and the City" with my best mate Erica. In true girl's night out style, a Thai dinner was followed by champagne cocktails to get ready for a feel good movie with an edge. The cinema was sold out. 95% of the audience was female. Read more..

I have recently been working on an article for Forum magazine on inspirational vagina art and also the worrying trend in plastic surgery to create cloned designer vaginas. During my research I came across Jamie McCartney, a Brighton based body caster who is currently working on a piece entitled "design-a-vagina".. Read more..

I just returned from the first ever "Passion" show in London. I loved the design of the show: all black and pink with plush pink carpets leading the way to a huge variety of sensual merchandise.. Read more..

When looking at the shelf of an average sex shop one could easily think that there are hardly any female filmmakers making creative porn from a woman's point of view. But that is not the case. Through networking I discovered other talented women who produce films for women independently and it is a pleasure to be connected with them. Read more..

I am so excited because today my feminist porn award for "best bi scene" arrived. I was not able to fly out to Toronto to collect it personally so I want to thank the organizer for sending me the unique glass butt-plug trophy!. Read more..

Tickets for Passion Show and more to be won. Read more..

One of the highlights of Erotika Cologne was for me bumping into so many talented women who work independently in the erotic industry. Read more..

I am sitting on the plane right now, high above the Rhine and a beautiful sunset over Cologne. I am tired but happy. I even do not mind that I just had to pay easyjet £25 for excess luggage because my suitcase is so jam-packed with press releases, lube samples and the latest vibrators from the trade show "Erotika 2008". I have had the most amazing time.. Read more..

Yesterday I did a photo shoot with Mistress Valkyrie who has become a dear friend! She wanted some "dark and feminine" pictures - it's her passion and my speciality... Read more..

I just got back to Berlin and am a little low - I miss the creative buzz of this wonderful city and the community of (erotic) artists that welcomed me. I wish I could have stayed or wish even more that I could go back soon to shoot my fourth film... Read more..

What a wonderful day it has been. And tomorrow I am going back to the UK and somehow I don't want to.. Read more..

Yesterday was an exciting day. I got to see a really cool location - a 100 year old club with working table telephones. How wonderful, I would really like to shoot here, now it is just a matter of how much the location will cost per day. I will get on the case... Read more..

I am in wonderful Berlin, Berlin to find locations, performers and general inspiration for my next film ? a burlesque erotic adventure... Read more..

I was not even sure if I was going to go to the screening of two of my short films at the Lesbian and Gay Film Festival at the BFI in London but I am so glad that I did. Read more..

Believe it or not the distribution for "Feeling it!" is still not sorted. I have had a few small wholesellers placing orders only to promptly follow them with not-so-nice emails, suspecting me of selling the film to other dealers at a better price. But of course I charge everyone the same price. Read more..

Last night Violetta came over. We had an Easter roast and knocked back a bottle of red Russian Krim champagne. I am so blessed that most of the performers of my films have become such good friends that we regularly socialise. Read more..

Yesterday I had the pleasure to meet another female "pornographer" in Cologne's café Orlando, Nicole Rudiger one of the editors of the "Jungsheft" - a magazine that shows ordinary guys nude and with hard ons. Read more..

It has been 18 months since my last film came out so I am keen to provide more food for thought for the many women and men who enjoyed my first two films, but things are not looking good right now. Read more..

I can't believe it but our third film is finally finished. After a 16 hour day in the edit suite yesterday, a night on the edit suites floor and another busy day today, here its is: "Feeling it!" - hot of the press. Read more..

It has been a wonderful few days: Yesterday I received an email from Annie Sprinkle with comments about our second movie, "Female Fantasies". The subject of the email was "Fabulous"... Read more..

First of all: happy new year to everyone! I have been busy catching up with boring bits as admin and accounting. What cheered me up today was receiving some inspirational "fan mail". Read more..

For the first time in three months I feel that I am not moving at 200 m.p.h. anymore. It has been really nice to be based home rather than in a hotel room and take the time to log all the great footage we produced over the last year for the final edits of the new film in February. Read more..

There is a very cool guy who I admire: Mat Fraser, an actor and presenter and the compere of the annual "Night of The Senses". Read more..

Last night I went to a party for the first time in I don't know how many months. A real house party, not a trade show event. Somewhere to let my hair down without networking like crazy, signing DVDs with one hand and handing out casting flyers with the other. Read more..

My boyfriend always insists to read the manual before you use a new electrical appliance. I am way too impatient to do that. I learn gadgets by trial and error. My approach might take longer but is not as boring as working your way through instructions that were clumsily translated from Japanese. Read more..

I just got back from Erotica in London - the UK's busiest and biggest adult life style show. It has been an amazing experience and I am so glad that I was invited to take part giving my seminars "How to shoot your lover! Erotic film making for couples".. Read more..

Yesterday I had the pleasure to do a privately commissioned photo shoot with a couple that have found me through watching "Female Fantasies". They love the movie and it continues to inspire their love life. I was glad to hear that the film especially turns her on - we aim to please! Read more..

Next week around this time I will be at Erotica, giving my workshop "How to shoot your lover". I like to empower people to create their own erotic visuals rather than just to consume porn and copy what they see. I really look forward to the event. If you have time next weekend and feel like doing a workshop on erotic photography or filmmaking, come to Erotica at London Olympia and join in! Read more..

It is a golden late autumn day and I am basking in the afterglow of an amazing shoot. We filmed last weekend for four days and it went really well! My focus was on a multinational cast, genuine big female orgasms and to promote safe sex in an erotic way. And against all odds such as delayed planes, ill health and lost props - we did it! Read more..

Our last day in Berlin was jam packed - I was hoping to go to the sauna and take in some touristy sights of Berlin but there was no time. Violetta, Mia and I were interviewed for RTL-Plus where a feature on porn for women will be shown in the programme EXTRA on the 5th November. Read more..

Today we did a photo shoot at the Tiergarten which is a huge Park in Berlin and a famous gay cruising ground. Thanks to Laura and her posse bi and lesbian women cruise here as well once a month on a Wednesday after sunset under the Amazon statue. It did not take long before the clothes came off and the girls got playful even though it was a cold autumn eve. We had a lot of fun during the shoot and surprisingly even the nuns walking past did not seem to mind our antics. Read more..

It was a particularly exciting day for us as before the panel discussion Marita Neher premiered her documentary "The She Pornographers" that shows us and many other female erotic artists at work. The documentary was followed by two clips of my new film, now titled "ART-core", and it was exciting to show those two finished vignettes to the audience. Read more..

I was honoured to be a guest at Laura Meritt's salon that she runs from her home which doubles as a shop every Friday. She has an open house policy, her flat functioning as a hub for women who want to browse for exciting, toys and films and meet likeminded girls. We had a bottle of bubbly, truffles and watched clips from my upcoming film "Art-core". Read more..

Standing in the spotlight, the flash lights going off and holding an award whilst people are applauding - I am not going to lie to you: it IS the best feeling in the world ! I can not believe it quite yet - Female Fantasies has won the award for the best "soft" Film at the Barcelona Erotic Film Festival. I am still buzzing 48 hours later. Read more..

On the way to the Ficeb the taxi driver tells me what a big event this trade show and film festival really is. All of Barcelona knows about it and wants a slice of the action. Even though when I arrive the event is only open to trade and press there is a really exciting vibe in the air. Read more..